Scott Allen Barton

Anyone who's lost a child
Will know just how I feel
l also know that every day
The pain is very real

My heart is broken Scotty
For what ive loved and lost
I'd bring you back tomorrow
No matter what the cost

But I know thats impossible
But it doesnt stop me wishing
Cos every second of everyday
It's you that I am missing

Scotts Mum Tracey (Mummy) February 18, 2008

I\'m sorry.

Hey Scotty. Wat r doin up ther? Do u miss us lik we miss u?! R u windin up all the dogs? Scott its meant 2get easier as time goes by but evry day hurts mor n mor. We go about r daily lives pretendin were ok but undaneath were hurtin n cryin so much. I kep thinkin its not real, but in reality i jus dnt wana face the truth. I no u wudnt want us mopin n cryin afta u, but wat else can we do? Ur not here 2mak us smile n laugh! Life is missin the sunny 1! Scott im sorry i wasnt there 4u as much as i cudve bin. But as u no we cudnt n didnt want 2giv u germs. I wish so many times i cud ov bin wiv u at the end. Im so sorry i wasnt. Where do we al go frm here?! I no we al hav eachotha n we shud get on wiv its jus not tht easy! I Love u Scott n im sorry 4bein a sap u wudve given me a dead arm n told me sumfin 2mak me smile! Miss u huny!! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Zed Simmons-Dehghani (Cousin) February 17, 2008

I miss you

Hello smiley chops, sorry i didnt write yesterday but i kinda felt like one of those balloons you been busy popping- deflated. 3 long weeks have passed now and this isnt getting any easier. Everything reminds me of you and i feel like theres a great big black hole in front of me where ever i go. I just wanted to say sorry really, sorry for not being able to make you better and sorry that this had to happen to you. I wish it could of been me, ive had my life, ive done everything i wanted to do and that was thanks to having you & Lee. You both really are the most perfect sons any mother could wish for.
Our house seems so quiet now,you filled it with laughter and smiles and i know one day it will be like that again, it just seems a very long way off. Im scared tho Scotty, scared to even think of life without you, every night i turn your lamp on in your room just so that you wont be in the dark, silly huh? Every morning i go in there and smile at you. I carry your smelly ole' beeny hat round with me cos it keeps you close to me and im beginning to think other people think im mental cos they think im talking to myself lol. i could sit here and type crap all day but the words just dont put into justice how desperately lonely i feel without you - you are my world.
Love always to my beautiful smiler Mummy xxxxxxxxxxx

Scotts Mum Tracey (Mummy) February 16, 2008

Ah scott. Sitting here with tears streaming down my face. If you was here you'd tell me to sort it out!! But I cant, cant express this sadness in words so i just cry.
You funeral was such a lovely day. It was the most beautiful day, really sunny. So many people came to say goodbye to you. And we all wore yellow like you wanted!
Even all your flowers were yellow!!
Bless han and rach, they did ya proud with their reading. And your mum was so brave. Such a special person. She held it together so well.
I will always think of you Scott. And times we shared together. Memories are so precious!!
And you will live on in each of us who know you, your life wont be in vain.
I remember the day we all went to london to visit you when you was in hospital. it was so hot and sunny and you were so worried about the kids. You were slatherin taya carter and alf in suncream, rubbing it all in their hair every half hour and making sure they wore their hats! You were so worried about them getting hot n burnt.
I wont forget that, and i promise you I will always do it when its hot!!
Im gonna go cs im rambling now.


Sleep tight sweetie
xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Carissa (Friend) February 16, 2008

U got the love.

Hey huny. How r u? Wel mate wat a day yesterday huh?! U had the best send off. It woz beautiful. U were beautiful. Inside n out Scott. U had ur evil streak, but Scott u were so great. Caring, Sweet, Loyal, giving, understandin, happy and oh so brave. I cant bliev wat u went thru n stil u smiled n made othas smile. Yesterday showed us jus how much u were loved n how well thort ov u were. So many people, so many tears, so many flowers, so much yellow! U must ov bin laffin so hard at the amount ov people blubbin! We cry huny coz uv left such an achin void in r lives. U were 1 ov those people who touched so many peoples lives. N every life u touched is glad they had u. I am honoured to hav had u as my cousin. Im lucky i'v had the lst 23 nearly 24 years wiv u. We caused trouble, got filthy and had so much fun. I will cherish every foto, every smile, every memory i hav ov u. Yesterday woz so hard. I thort my heart wud break. Ur mum chose great songs. N how many people got drunk 4u?! Haha. I hope u read all ur msgs on ur balloons. I miss u Scotty, life will never b the same wivout u. I wished I had the chance 2c u n tel u i loved u n hugged u b4 u went away. I jus thort we had mor time. I thort u wud b ok. I hope u r free ov pain now n in peace huny. I Love u so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Zed Simmons-Dehghani (Cousin) February 14, 2008

Hiya darling
Well, did you see how many people love you? Mate as sad as it was to say goodbye you had the best day! Beautiful sunshine, not a cloud in the sky and everyone dressed in yellow!!! Everbody let a balloon go for you, i hope you read all the messages on them before you popped them lol. There arent words to describe how we feel Scotty, we all miss you so much but i was told yesterday that you touched the lives of everyone you met and there's not one person who wouldnt feel honoured to have known you. No one will ever forget you- i wont let them.
sleep peacefully my beautiful son, i love you the bestest
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Scotts Mum Tracey (Mummy) February 14, 2008

Smile :)

Helo my darling,thank u 4 shining down on us all yesterday,it helped us smile thru the oceans of tears!! Wat a fantastic turnout by all those whose lives u touched in some way. And wat a glorious day,bright blue sky & brilliant sunshine,not a cloud in sight!! Evry last person wore summat yellow,it was lovely 2 see!! We laid u to rest with lots of tears cos ur not here with us,& lots of smiles as we remembered the beautiful person u were for almost 24 years! Hope u caught the balloons that were sent 2 u from Watford,Liverpool & Skegness,bet that kept u busy 4 a while huh?!! We'll never,ever 4get u darling boy,u r so sorely missed every hour of every day!! Rest in peace sweetheart...I'm sending a dove to you with a parcel on it's wings. Be careful how you open it,it's full of beautiful things! Inside are a million kisses wrapped up in a million hugs,to say how much you mean to me and send you all my love xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx

Sharon (Auntie) February 14, 2008

Sleep tight Scott

Scott what a pleasure it was knowing you.
I watched you grow up from a little boy into a lovely kind friendly young man who always had a smile and a kind word and you'll be sadly missed Scott.
(who's going to keep me up to date on the g***'s now)
Your in my thoughts Sleep tight Scott
Love Liz xxxxx

Liz Allen (Neighbour) February 14, 2008

So much love in here...

I did not know Scott but i feel i had to leave a message, theres so much love here!... Im sat with tears, remember the good times and smile when you think of them i know how hard this is i lost my beautiful dad in oct and well life just isnt the same... Scott you must have been some bloke to have all these people love you so much
RIP fella
sending you all love to get through the dark days love Lisa x

Lisa (A passer by) February 13, 2008

Scott xxx

Hey huni,well it's almost 2morrow...nobody is looking forward to it,cos 2morrow we have to say our final goodbyes to our beloved Smiler! You are constantly in our thoughts,last thing at night,first thing in the morning,throughout the whole day every day!! And now finally,2mrw is almost upon us. Please smile on us Scotty,we need you to help us thru this,it's going to be sooo hard! Love always & 4eva darling,c ya 2mrw xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx

Sharon (Auntie) February 12, 2008